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I thought I knew what I was going to write about tonight.  But I don't.

If you have read any of the past posts, you know that I would write about a "lie" followed by the counter balance of the "truth".  And then there was a long void when I didn't blog at all.  I didn't want to write because I thought I was complaining and I thought the writing may be perpetuating a problem.  It seemed like the more I shared, the more the corresponding behaviors showed up.  Sort of like after you have a baby, the more you try not to pee your pants when you sneeze, the more you have to sneeze.

Then a friend suggested that I just write.  No lie, no truth.  She said it didn't matter what I had to say.  Just write. 

Don't you know I began to write, and was asked by fol-liars "where are the lies?"  Which has made me realize something.  We love familiarity and we hate change.  And this is the biggest lie of all - change.  We all see change through different lenses.  I have a friend from grade school who loves change.  She seeks change on purpose...bitch.  Then there is the rest of us who run to hide from change.

Change in my life is a process.  I'm starting at a snails pace and hoping to increase to slow walk in the change game.  First I have to stop at the ladies room before I sneeze.